Little to no progress so far. Realistically, I expected today to be slower at work and for the path forward to feel clearer. Instead, I’m stuck—still anxious about making architectural decisions at this level. Years of troubleshooting a product built on shaky foundations have made me skeptical of every option in front of me.
Like crushing a spider… there’s a brief moment of relief, only to watch in horror as thousands of its offspring emerge from its corpse. Each line of code feels the same—progress made, ground claimed—yet in my mind, I see a thousand potential bugs, limitations, and design flaws spiraling into existence. I know this is for me, but the scars remain. I didn’t build that product, didn’t make those bad calls. But I knew those developers, those project managers. They had good intentions. Even the best-laid plans can derail.
Here’s my attempt at silencing the noise and pressing forward.